Keep Going

After all these years

All this pain

After all of this love

That I found then lost

And then found again and again

In a place it was residing in

This whole time, I should have known

I feel changed

And I feel all of the changes

I saw my life flash before me

A beautiful blend

Of success and tragedy

As I felt myself rearrange

I am reminded that there is always that one constant

I know it is always there

That I still don't know

Where I truly belong

And these days I still get scared

That I will never find this place

My heart has always longed for

I still remember, feel that nostalgia

For the first time

When I was a teenager

Lying on the bathroom floor

And I shudder when I think

How I could have lost it all from drugs and drink

But I survived that night

And I survived plenty more

Cause I know within my heart

When it comes to life

There is so much more in store

So I get up every day

And face it, whether I want to or not

Because at the end of things, this life is all I will take with me

It is the only thing anyone has got

So I take control, by letting go of what tastes sweet

But is holding me back

And try to will into existence

Everything I lack