June’s Bitter Memories

Just before my birthday, you were taken away,

Under the summer sun, you silently lay.

Never will June be the same again,

Eyes once filled with life, now veiled in pain.

Death took you swiftly, in a heartbeat’s pause,

Echoes of your laughter, now a distant cause.

A tall man, my protector, lying still on the ground,

Time has passed, but your absence is profound.

Here I stand, 28 years without your light,

A shadowed heart, living in perpetual night.

No fear existed when you were near,

Now I sing your songs to feel you here.

In every game, in every tune,

Voices of the past, under the moon.

Eternal longing, a father's embrace missed,

Remembering you in every bite and every twist,

Since 1996, my heart in pieces, torn,

All your favourites now in my life reborn,

Returning to those days, when fear was none,

Yet now I face each June, as if the pain's just begun.

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P.S: June is typically always a difficult month for me. My father's death anniversary is on June 26th, only two days before my birthday. I was probably 15 or 16 years old when he died. He suffered from a heart attack and collapsed on the floor. He was a strong, six-foot-tall man who I could not lift or move to the hospital or even to a bed. I was alone and panicked, hurrying outdoors to seek help. Every June, that horrible event repeats over and over again in my thoughts. I have carried a tremendous anxiety and trauma that has accompanied me ever since I lost my father, a strong, brave man.

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If you wanna participate, here is the link of the Real Poetic challenge for one year anniversary.