A Little Bit Of God
January 2026
I thought I’d spend the night in neon lights on grainy film but my brother is telling me how an eternity of hell is caused by prevalent peace, and who am I to disrupt such a thing? So I found myself in the same skin with the same sights, wondering whether or not I am one of those– do I feel peace? Do I expect more when it is gone? It being everything. We’re running out of time but the car is belching up something strange and we’ve got God in between our eyes nodding along to every apology and plea spoken for our friends and loved ones– they don’t know any better, they’ll come around eventually. He’s telling me about barbed wire guides around lives and ties and wives and lies and, look, the snow is starting to fall so I guess we better hang up soon. But it’s been too long. We’re building fields of skills and realms of distrust and these moments are only seen now, can no longer be read as words, only swept with eyes upon oil pastels or smudged charcoal. It’s a painting of an evening, like Daniel’s soles in Edgar Degas’ mind, but if anything is just it’s the lack of unrest in skin like His and lives like this– okay, so maybe five hours on the phone is a lot if you have a job and you’re trying to cook dinner, but only one of us falls into that gorge and only one of us believes in what lies beneath it. My brother tells me things that sit in my spirit like half an ounce of prospect and a squeeze of bourn, how he tells God to let me in: despite my sins, despite all the moons in between these calls, despite the burning in both of our throats. I do feel peace here. I also feel that my peace is a subpar window job, a pinky’s strength avoiding blizzards inside the bedsheets. I’d like to spend more nights like this, with contrasting disaster living between a speakerphone, and God finding some space in between.
Comments (6)
Well-wrought, Mark! Will the soul be so light as to balance the scale with the feather on the other side, assuring passage beyond? Or shall it burn like the sun in its desolate waste, nevertheless emitting love and light for all? Only time will tell!
Wow, that was really well written.
Really thank you your poet
I do my best to remember- judge not lest ye be judged!
So very true. That's how I try to live but my problem is that I also, very often say what I feel. I don't believe in injustice and rarely hesitate to voice my opinion about it.
I try to do good and help everyone I can. Hope I get a good allowenceand feed back off the man himself up yonder. Nice poetry there ✍️🏆♦️