It's okay

It's okay that I feel so low

it's okay that I feel so lost

it's okay that I 'miss' myself

it's okay that life is blurry right now

it's okay that I really miss my brother

it's okay that I also get really frustrated with situations in my life right now

it's okay to feel many feelings and thoughts at once that all juxtapose

it's okay that different parts of me feel estranged

it's okay that I feel numb

it's okay that it's been longer than a year

it's okay to cry the same tears every day

it's okay that not crying is a new accomplishment

it's okay that I don't always recognise myself nowadays

it's okay that sometimes all I feel I can achieve is making it through the day

it's okay that all I'm relying on right now are little signs and messages of reassurance

it's okay that all I can rely on is my steadfast faith and trust

it's okay that I don't want to always cry with others

and it's okay that all I might need is to cry with others

it's okay that I'm holding on no matter how tired and drained I feel

it's okay that some unhealthy habits are helping me through this period of my life

it's okay that I've never been here before

it's okay that I'm going far away from where I am, day by day

it's okay that my everyday goal is just to make it to the next day

it's okay to feel so in tune with my truth and then it feel static again

it's okay that being in my house doesn't always merit a home

it's okay that I dance and cry

it's okay that I lay and cry

it's okay that I laugh and cry

it's okay that I take deep breaths through overthinking

it's okay that I pause

it's okay that I rest

it's amazing how far I've come

it's amazing how much I've grown

it's amazing who I am becoming.

My strength is astonishing

my faith is commendable,

and my trust is truly a treasure.

Thank you Spirit Family and beyond.

Thank you for all your love, encouragement, messages, guidance, support, protection, and abundance you're constantly pouring into me

Thank you Ruhani for the hugs and kisses in low times, thank you for getting up and dancing whilst tears ran down your face, thank you for the kind words you needed to hear, the soft touch you needed to feel, thank you for the patience and grace you unconditionally gave in abundance, I love you all.