It’s Not You, It’s Me

It’s not you, it’s me

I can’t stand such hypocrisy

You can’t lie or make me cry

Why is it always the truth that hides?

I can’t cope with this nonsense anymore

Yet every time I try, I get shown the door

I can’t figure out what the issue is

Or why history repeats like this

Fed up of optimism from well meaning friends

When they know that this is how the story always ends

Take one for the team, and I tried so hard

I pushed back the barriers ready to embark

On a new journey with a new point of view

You tell me to be more selfish, but never with you

If I try to fight for us, I look like the bad guy

And your statements of ‘it’ll be okay’ make me side eye

You can’t turn me upside down then just walk away

You can’t tell me I’ll be fine when you made me not okay

I hurt in more places now, I’m encased in the dark

I had carved you a recess in the depths of my heart

Now it’s just empty, a self made black hole

Now I feel lost because I keep losing my soul

Stop with your fake words, why should I believe what you say?

When you were reason I did cry today.

I’ve lost my resolve, and I have no fight to give

I feel like an empty shell, no real reason to live

I don’t know who I am, because each time I try

Someone like you leaves me high and dry

I don’t want love again, because it’s always a bad thing

It leaves me more gnarled and broken, cracks reaching within

I don’t want love or to hear that I’ll be fine

So please just leave me with your ridiculous goodbye

Every time I trust, someone uses it to break me apart

But how can I trust when everyone’s stolen my heart?

A million shards floating in the world

But they are no longer the property of this girl

People like to beat you down and don’t understand

That they tore apart your psyche when they let go of your hand