Is this the beginning?

Is this the beginning when I fall to my knees

Tears drop from my eyes in slow motion

Arriving on the floor akin to thunderous echoes

Inquiring of myself in between each lament

Is this the beginning my eyes gaze at broken pieces

My heart, tender its kindness, affectionate its care

Fngers work each piece, in its sluggish attempt

To breathe again, from you, from which I’ve been

Is this the beginning, when time is supposed to heal

Time is no healer, it deviates slowly, deafening

In blinks of sorrows, I resign to push through

Memories of words shared, laughs had, hearts joined

Is this the beginning of night hours contemplating

Day hour requirements, their load on me, heavy

Sunshine pleads with me from outside my window

To raise my eyes in anticipation of another day

Is this the beginning, seeing you in my imagination

Envisaging your smile, evoking your senses, picturing only

The contour of your stride now part of my reminiscing

Visualising our first meeting now my muse to ponder

Is this the beginning I remember to tell myself

I shouldn’t have permitted the days to be spent, by us

In my eagerness to help I gave you a part of me

My part now with you fragmented from me, only

Is this the beginning of the journey to our end

Footprinting a future without you

The impact of me, imprinted on you

The imprint of you, impacted on me

Salwa Samra © 2015

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