Inside Looking Out
"Gaslighting is an insidious form of manipulation and psychological control. Victims of gaslighting are deliberately and systematically fed false information that leads them to question what they know to be true, often about themselves. They may end up doubting their memory, their perception, and even their sanity." - Psychology Today
apparently
i'm not visible
in the material world
and
can't be seen with the naked eye
only
in a place that doesn't exist
a world of the intangible
a where
that isn't real
in which
what is felt is not physical
chains
that are merely metaphorical
a void
with varying voices
clouds
that only cover me
and rain that only I can feel
but apparently
it's- "not real"
manifested from the imaginary
only my ears can hear
feelings
only I can feel
but apparently
aren't real
fake
made up
i'm invalidated
i'm hurt
i wish to be known
i'm not simply seeking attention
not many understand
i exist
only
underneath the mask
on the inside
looking out
i'm what was painted over
disguised
hidden
ignored
apparently
not important
enough
stuck
on the inside
looking out
i see
hurt people
hurting people
but am not seen
by this world
maybe
if it saw me
and knew me
maybe
it would be different
maybe they'd care about one another
and as for me
i'd finally be uncovered
free
from
the pile of lies i'm told
that build this mask
i'm put under
from the inside looking out
to the outside seeing in
now seen
and known
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Now read only the italicized words. :)
About the Creator
Josh Morgan
Personally, writing began as a creative outlet, to be a means of processing and venting emotion, but it has become so much more. Something I want not to be just relatable, enjoyable and a good read, but to reach someone who is in need.
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