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If you know, you know

Content Warning - Plus, I'm okay.

By Paul StewartPublished 2 years ago 1 min read

If you know, you know

lights red

time green

step on future

end future

easy for me

to let go

to give in

auto collision desires

tyremarks

leave marks

erase soul marks

Selfish? yes

easy for me

not behind the wheel

under wheel

blackout

quick fix

no fix

pain inherited

by...

those left behind

if you know, you know

"it doesn't really matter"

one step

off the pavement

into nothing

the pull is strong

dive into the cold

loch, lake or river

pulled under

the undercurrent

erase the undercurrent

of sadness

powering my soul

chilling me

erasing everything

blue skin

easy for me

struggle for breath

struggle to stay afloat

pulled under

the lack of breath

the end

quick fix

Blackout

quick fix

no fix

pain inherited

by...everyone left behind

Selfish? yes

easy for me

not the search party

if you know, you know

one dive

off the shore

into nothing

if you know, I'm sorry

burden

may always be there

behind everything

but

hope is there

lift it

give it

burden

pain

suffering

weight of all

suffocating you

help is there

if you know, you know

reach out

under the wheel

under the current

doesn't need to be the end

"Everybody Hurts"

headlights

searchlights

don't need to be the end

*

Thanks for reading!

Author's Notes: More trickle-trickle- publishing. Trust me, I'm alright. Despite how it sounds. Just expressing, getting rid of some stuff.

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  • C. Rommial Butler2 years ago

    Letting out the toxins slowly so they don't overwhelm the system, creating beauty despite the pain. Well-wrought, friend!

  • Test2 years ago

    Felt this one Paul. Beautifully expressed but so sad nontheless. So often blackout has felt like a good out x Take care 🤍

  • Mackenzie Davis2 years ago

    Oh shit. I'll believe you when you say you're okay, but knowing that these thoughts have occurred to you means that you haven't been okay in the past, and damn, that is a whole ass story right there. Your stellar poetic voice is really shining bright in this one. The repetition of "if you know you know" and "easy for me" is my favorite part of this; each line creates the rhythm of the piece, frames off particular transitions/themes, like drowning versus falling versus crashing. I can't say I know, exactly, but I kind of do. I relate to the sadness and hopelessness and the hatred of life, but I'm very glad to read the end of this one, as it pokes some holes of hope into the fabric of wanting it all to be over. Fantastic. Ditto to Poppy; my favorite of yours so far. But of course, it's impossible to land on a favorite with your work.

  • Cathy holmes2 years ago

    Holey moley, that good. And Rae, and powerful. Well done, Buddy.

  • Suze Kay2 years ago

    Well, I know. Glad you're with us to share this story, and all your others. And then also, like, ditto to everything Poppy said. <3

  • Poppy 2 years ago

    I'm adding this to my mental list of favourites. The short punchy lines made it so raw and impactful. "lights red time green" I was drawn in by this line but ended up admiring the poem more and more as it went on. "if you know, I'm sorry" That was utterly heartbreaking. If this poem had've found me at a different time, that simple line would've probably brought me to tears. "hope is there lift it give it" So simple and yet powerful. "headlights searchlights don't need to be the end" That ending was the most perfect finish to this marvelous poem. Truly, a beautiful poem - acknowledging the depths of depression etc but still offering hope. I'm going to ignore the subtitle though and make sure, are you doing okay?

  • Ruth Stewart2 years ago

    Glad you're okay. Well written. Good stuff.

  • I'm glad you're okay. Still, the words ring far too true for many of us even to make it to your closing adjurations. Yep, next appointment is 11 a.m. Wednesday. We'll see.

  • Grz Colm2 years ago

    I think this is a common intrusive thought. Thanks for sharing this! ☺️ Have a swell day!

  • Gosh, this was so intense and quite unsettling. Like we gotta always stay vigilant. I'm just glad you're okay but still sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

  • B2 years ago

    Ouch. This poem was such a kick in the gut.😣 I love the statement of the search party. Like you were saying how lost you were, and that they'd never find you. As always, wonderful writing, Paul. Truly poignant and powerful.

  • The Dani Writer2 years ago

    Where poetic grit meets the road. No apologies. This...is what it does for us. Bravo Brave One!

  • L.C. Schäfer2 years ago

    Pulling no punches with the hard hitting stuff, today! Did you write it as verses? Sometimes I do that but V loses line breaks.

  • Caroline Jane2 years ago

    Oh goodness. I could feel my chest tightening half way through that. Oof. Glad you are ok. This reels and that picture is ace!

  • Tiffany Gordon2 years ago

    Paul you are a brilliant writer. So glad that Hope emerged to offer support. Blessings to you always. Hope you feel better soon.

  • Toby Heward2 years ago

    Quite powerful

  • Kendall Defoe 2 years ago

    You knew you knew...

  • Well written. If you know, you know.

  • Hannah Moore2 years ago

    I love this expression of pain inherited.

  • Oh the pain of a car accident Good poem

  • Lamar Wiggins2 years ago

    Glad you're okay! That gave me anxiety, lol. Not in a bad way, it's just the effect the words had, racing down the page. Well done!!!

  • Joe Patterson2 years ago

    Yep. If you know you know.

  • Tressa Rose2 years ago

    Auto collision desires 👏 well written!

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