If the Universe is listening.......

I wish my love would leave/ Why did my love go? Are you as confused as my mind with all this jumbling around? You are so powerful, so immense, and limitless. I think of the sky. Silent all around me, trying to keep every desire I speak in mind, sorting through the confused thinking I go through. The depression and mood swings, the mess that is my mind. Which of all these requests will I learn what I still don’t know? You know, from my heart and my constantly changing thoughts. Questioning what I dreamt of the day before. Is this what is best, or should I aim for more? Never quite satisfied. I am battling myself in this war. I can see this is a task for you from me. From deep down, I am sending a sincere apology. I will forgive myself and apply a different strategy: a little less confusion, how is a minor catastrophe. Let’s take a deep breath and slow down. Be present at the moment where a simple thought may be found. Maybe wait until dark to gaze at the stars and the sparkling dust that makes us. Searching for the dust of the star I came from, not all those I see. Try to ignore the shiny ones. The ones I’m always trying to be. The whole world has quieted. It has all gone still, letting me search my own heart for how I feel. Peace goes through me; I feel it enter as I breathe. Acceptance is what I long for. To stop being everything everyone wants me to be. As the Universe listens so intently and it’s asking what it is that I need. I reply at barely a whisper, “I am looking to find myself, I just dream to know me.”