If I Stay

I never saw myself as the heartbreaker, never thought I had potential

To take someone’s heart and gentle as possible,

Shatter it into a

Million little pieces

“Please don’t do this,” he says

I just shake my head but

The tears running down my face says I don’t want to

I have to.

My heart is breaking too

not because I’m losing him,

But because his face looks like a dog who

Was rejected and thrown on the curb carelessly to

Fend for himself. His trust forever fractured.

His face is a dead giveaway of his heart shattering

And each minute that passes by I see it breaking

Even more, as reality hits him that

I’m really leaving him.

It’s my fault that he’s hurting

And this fact makes my heart drop to my

Stomach.

His world is shattering like fragile china

and I’m the one with the jackhammer smashing it apart

“I have to go,” I say and he grabs my arm and cries

“Please don’t.” But if I stay

I’ll be weak and tell him I don’t mean it

So I give one last look and walk

Away