I would know

Back at it can’t believe I’m back to this

I open my note pad staring at it

I thought I wouldn’t have another reason to crawl back to this

Scrambling down yet another hurtful experience Wondering if this is it

I have crossed the line yet in a stance

And to my chest I have taken another hit

Typing out words blurry

It’s hard to see with the tears falling down in a hurry

Once again thinking about how to make this pass, dig a hole and bury

Wondering how I can have it disappear, don’t even want it as a memory

Cause all of it I must carry ?

This might be too much for me, I already have so much in store

I can barely feel my heart, it feels so sore

I am not even concerned for me anymore

I could stay alone forever but I’m a lover to my core

So I would spend forever longing for something more

But all I can think about right now is how much I feel like a slore

It’s too much it feels like a chore

Once again I’m thinking about taking the easy way out

Go into a void so empty I could shout

I’m sorry that when things got tough you’re the first thing I could drop

But I can’t go back to being lost so I can’t stop

This isn’t a simple decision for me

So I might have to block you out so I don’t have to hear you plea

I can’t tell you why but this is all I know

The curtain closes, I believe it has come to an end. This show

Pack up my bags seems I’m done here

That’s my clue to disappear

And don’t act like this will hurt you the most

Cause for the most hurt I’m the host

Last I checked, incomparably I have lost

You might say to me I am overreacting

I have nothing to say

I can say I would blank out the bad part of all this

But I have no clue how else I would stay

And you might be tempted to say no one would know but I would

I would know.