I Want to Not Live Anymore

I am someone who breaks way too easily.

With the smallest set back

All that I have worked for crashes to a stop

Nothing is spared.

Trying to put myself together again seems impossible.

Though I want to become someone who is strong

Over and over I try to recreate myself into someone new

Never seeing that who I create is just as weak as before

Only to break and splinter into a thousand pieces

To start over again and again hoping for a different outcome.

Life starts to become meaningless,

Is everything I do doomed to fail?

Vexed with myself and

Envious of those around me for having what I lack.

Alas something starts to emerge

Not something like all the other times

Yearning to be truly changed

More than I have ever been before

Over come with hope

Reeling with this new outlook

Everything starts to change.