I've lost control !

I'm dying slowly.

The world is closing in around me..

I feel as though I'm losing myself in the mix of feeling like I'm dying slowly.

I can't catch my breath so I close my eyes just to feel as though I'm sinking. Than I jump up hoping this feeling will pass but it gets worse.

I feel light-headed like the whole room is closing in on me and just when I think I'll faint my chest starts pounding and my throat starts closing I'm looking around for help someone can see that I'm dying right here right now can't they?

But they don't!

They can't see anything because it's in my head and the panic setts in I'm losing myself.

I'm losing my life!

Now my muscles tighten and I cannot move!

My fingers curl and it hurts everything hurts.

They keep telling me to focus on my breathing can't they see I'm dying? Don't they see something is wrong?

Just breath in through your nose out through your mouth.

I try to focus on what they are saying but I can't breath I'm going to faint. Only I'm not it's all in my head and they aren't in their nothing is wrong on the outside they see nothing…

I'm bonded by anxiety..

Why can't they see??

Will this last forever?

Maybe..

I'm not crazy!!

Please don't look at me like I'm crazy!

All of this is really happening in my head even if you can't see it.

I haven't lost it.

I swear I'm not losing it.

It's just…

Anxiety.