I'm good at goodbye.

I thought you were my forever..

I thought this is it I finally did it.

I found the man that loved me for me and wanted to grow old with me.

I didn't think I'd be sitting here crying over you.

Sitting here asking myself why I'm not enough to fight for.

You fought so hard for me in the beginning..

I don't know what changed..

Somewhere down the line you gave up.

• You decided I wasn't enough for you..

You became someone I didn't know.

Drink one you were still the sweet man I loved.

Drink three we still had fun.

Somewhere between drink 5 or maybe more........

You become a monster.

You find every word you can to hurt me.

You yell you throw things and treat me like I'm nothing.

You made me feel less than..

The sad part is I would of let it go like I had so many times before.

The sad part is this wasn't what did it for me.

It was being put on the back burner.

No longer being important enough for you to take out.

No longer important enough to be around your friends.

No longer attractive enough to show affection.

I was a ghost in this house we shared together.

There when it was convenient for you.

I lost my self two years into our relationship.

Somehow I stayed four more.

I like to say I wanted to try everything make sure I gave my all.

As true as that is I think the last two years were out of fear.

I loved you even though you hurt me.

I loved you even when I shouldn't of.

I still do.

Leaving you has been hard.

There isn't a day I don't want to call you back.

I think it hurts more to know you.

Didn't care you didn't fight.

You let me push you away.

Push you out.

Did you ever truly love me?

Did you want to be with me?

Did you stay so long because it was easy?

Because you still did whatever you wanted?

I'm not sure when I'll get myself back.

When I'll be able to fully let you go.

Finding myself while loosing you has been one of the hardest things I've done.

Though it's good for me.

Though it's good for you.

I still miss us.