I’ve grown from you

It was that I thought you didn’t see me for me now.

I thought you didn’t see who I turned myself into.

Who I am portraying myself as a person now.

That all the hurt you brought me

And all the hurt I caused myself

Because of us,

I twisted it for the better.

I bettered myself and my emotions

And learned how to guard my heart

Against people like you.

I learned not only my own self worth

But I learned to portray my self worth onto others.

I am unashamed to be myself now.

I thought you couldn’t see that.

But I was wrong.

It isn’t that you cannot see me for me now.

It’s that I cannot portray myself to you.

I can only portray my old self to you.

Because no matter how much I heal

No matter how much I’ve grown

No matter how much I am truly over you.

I will always be my old self when I see you.

Because who you were to me then will never

Not exist to me.

It will always be apart of not only my past

But your past too.

And that’s why I know,

You’ve changed too.

I know you have.

You’ve grown.

You’ve matured.

And you’ve bettered yourself.

But we bring out the worst in each other.

Always have

Always will.

It’s history.

It’s present.

It’s future.

And I think when we both realized that,

We grew.

We healed.

And we finally saw eachother

for who we are now.