I Miss You

Your birthday is tomorrow…

I want so badly to find it in me to celebrate.

I just can't seem to shake the tears.

I still look for you when we have family gatherings.

I'm still waiting to wake up from this nightmare.

I still don't want to believe you aren't here.

I miss you.

I miss all of the memories we shared.

I wish the last memory I got of you wasn't ever real.

I can't find the right words to express the amount of miss I have!

You are so special to me!

So much more than just being an aunt.

You continuously made me feel that I could do and accomplish anything I wanted.

You made everything so easy.

I miss your wisdom.

Your courage.

Your sarcasm.

Your beauty.

And above all else

You….

Your smile

Your laugh

Your hugs

Your scent

I know you are doing great where you are.

I know you are watching down over us all.

I just can't shake how you were taken away.

Why didn't I do more to make them help you!?

You looked right at me with such sadness in your eyes.

They say because you had to say goodbye.

I say you weren't ready to go.

You weren't ready to throw in the towel..

I can't shake this feeling that I should of told them to help you to keep trying.

One day I'll be at peace I know.

But not today and for tomorrow I just don't know.

Happy birthday merla

You are missed