I Miss Her

I always wanted a big sister, especially someone like her.

Someone, I could look up to,I could do things with. Someone to always be there for me.

I asked God every day for one.Then it was like my prayers were answered. There she was,there standing, in that room...Smiling at me. She opened her arms,and let me in.

One day I came home. Room empty, no note…gone...She took a piece of me with her.Why did she leave me? I thought she hated me...Years later, she's back! Shouldn't have brought my hopes up...then you were gone...

Where’d you go!? Gone again?! Why?!I asked myself every day since you left."When you’re older", you said. I never understood.I was angry with you for so long. Why couldn't you have told me then!

You told me you loved me, you would always be there for me,but where are you now. you aren't here...I wanted someone there during my happy moments and the sad ones.You missed so much. Answer me, please!?

No matter how many times you left me, each timeI opened my arms to you again.and here you are again, oh and this time, you brought two gifts for me!I loved them, so much. Then you took that away from me too.Again you left, Room empty, no note…gone.

- written on Aug 22, 2014