I hope I can love you this way

I hope I can love you this way

They say that attention is the highest

Form of generosity and so I hope I can

Listen not just when you speak but when

You do not find the sunset in your

Eyes, but never assuming that it is

Sorrow because sunsets can be beautiful

If looked at in the right way

Finding the crimson in your lip but

Never assume that it's a cut because

Who knows, perhaps you have too much of a

Rush in your body to blush only from

Your cheeks find you different than

Before but never assume that this is

Permanent never resuming your identity

Because identity isn't a solid box, it's

A free-flowing fluid if it all exists

Believe me, my mind tends to

Wonder it is a scatterbrain that has

Left bits of itself in places that it

Doesn't even remember because the bits

Its uses for remembering are in places

That it doesn't even remember it is a

Mind that things of the stars too often

And the earth

Douglas, but when you speak I hope it

Remembers that before the big bang

Happened we were all one and veer as

Many stars the stars so before it

Wanders off again, I hope it comes back

When you're speaking, I hope it always

Comes back, I hope I can not just listen

But also see you truly see you

Beyond my conditioning beyond my

Feelings that I may have projected onto

You're beyond your ceilings that are

Sometimes strong sometimes fleeting that

I can learn to accept, do not expect that

I can love you in a way that doesn't

Feel like an inability to breathe

Despite having oxygen all around but

Instead, feels organic like a river

Flowing directionless so that it can

Create its direction with no dams

Forcefully constructed to redirect water

To misunderstood sunsets in tightly

Locked boxes, I hope I don't push myself

To give more dance than I would like to

That I don't care too much about the

The idea of love but care about you enough I

Hope I can love you fiercely but

Fearlessly they say that attention is

The highest form of generosity I believe

Their attention is the most basic form

Of love, so I hope I can love you this

Way but first

I hope I can love me this way