I don’t regret anything

Year after year with no address

Without a single mention of your existence

Although if I really wanted to, I would have found a way

To be closer to each of you

I doubt I would be appreciated

My soul would not be equal to my body

Because only the body they wanted

While the only thing I really cared about in my life

It is the part that cannot be seen on the ground

But will remain after my departure

The more esteemed part, denser, richer, more colourful, more intense

Like the hues of flowers in spring

They send their secret signals to the bees

“Here I am, pollinate me! Make me yours!”

That’s what I genuinely think

I needed you to discover the flavours of life

The ones I couldn’t approach as a single

It gave me an idea for a life that I never wanted to pursue

Anyway, I didn’t even have a chance to encounter perfect love

The first – unrequited; the second – bold; by the third my heart was already cold

Never learned to give as all takes have been spoiled

Incorrectly taken, rejected, flawed

And seriously? Now I don’t care much

I have a passion, just not for love

Once my heart was broken it turned to stone

Yet it gave me a rough and sharp view

About a path I desperately wanted to follow

Didn’t quite know back then where it would lead me

I have found myself in here so many times, on a single white sheet

Instead on a white sheet in a double bed

You never wanted to keep me, you spat me out in the end

So why should I care?

My only regret is that none of you really wanted my soul

Most ungratefully thrown at you

So, I guess not having me around

It’s your greatest sin of all

Hope you are all happy

In your own version of the success you believe in

Which was never equally mine

And I must shamelessly admit that I never regret it

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18 December 2021

revised on 29 September 2022

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