I didn't get to say goodbye

But I didn't get to say goodbye

You started ignoring my calls and I didn't know why

I found your face between the teardrops when I tried to cry

And then I tried

To move on to a new chapter

To turn the yellowed page

To move on past this

Broken stage

The rage

Filled my cheeks with hollow health and artificial light

The nights

Still lit up with the echoes of falling stars

And teardrops

Deleting endless messages and letting all your words drop

Into an endless abyss of utter darkness

So I wouldn't have to live the days without you

I'd just curl into a fetal and vulnerable position

Lost the roadmaps and my vision

Draining into blurry lines and pictures that were missing

Too many parts

To look complete

I thought I'd beat

This monster they call grief

But now it's clear that it's still got

A victim in me