I'd Rather by Kaé Cee

I'd don't want to go home.

I'd rather stay here,

taking in the warmth of the atmosphere.

I'd rather,

Feel the light cast by the moon and watch the night blanket the sky.

Soak in the energy of the people around me.

Go to the beach and watch the waves caress the Earth that God took their most precious time.

Each grain of sand represents the amount of minutes I'd rather be here than home.

I'd rather talk to you for hours.

Grateful for the fact that we have a place to live in,

A roof to hang over our heads,

A bed to sleep in.

But here we are, far away from it.

I'd rather scream out into the elements.

That way the heavens can hear me clearly.

Sit in my sorrow at a café than do it on a couch,

Crying into a throw pillow.

I'd rather lie in a field and peacefully pluck the leaves from a sunflower.

I...just....I don't.....

I'd rather,

Go to my sisters grave and read her one of my favorite books.

Take my grandma out to eat and watch the wrinkles on her face stretch when she smiles.

Get drunk with my mom on her birthday and laugh at the goofy I inherited.

I just don't want to go home.

Not yet.

Not just yet.

I'd rather die than sit in my house.

Letting my idle mind turn me into nothing.

I'd rather....I don't know anymore.

I just don't want to go home.