I can’t read.

I can read, but I can’t commit to it.

Not being able to finish a book because of the lose of interest or just struggling to focus on the text on a page sounds embarrassing, feels embarrassing, and for me, it’s embarrassing. So what is it? I don’t have dyslexia, I can actually read just fine. Yet, I can’t seem to finish books, it has to be 100% engaging for me to take any interest in. Otherwise, I skip text, I skim through pages, and then I get lost. Have I not found the right book? Are books not for me? Why does finishing a book start to feel more like a chore? All these questions make me feel like an outcast, as if I’m legitimately illiterate and yet I can’t stop tapping on the letters on my phone keyboard with my thumbs. If I could write pages of endless creative ideas I would, yet I can’t finish a book even if my life depended on it.

Maybe I just hate endings.