i infuriate myself
because
how can i be anything but happy
when the morning sun is warm on my face?
when it feeds me, rejuvenates me
and gives me life
how can i sit here
and be sad?
how can i feel nothing but self hatred
and wallowing regret?
i can hear the birds twitter in the sky
their sweet melodies, passionate and freeing
i can smell the grass of the earth
my earth, our earth
beneath my feet, the wafting scent of coffee
coming from my kitchen
from my family that i love
and i love it here
i do
and just like that, my sadness feels selfish
how can i think solely of myself
my decisions, my mistakes
when the world is different shades of blue
and yellow
and purple?
when i can see red, blue, green
pink, white, black, stunning—
whirlwinds of color before my eyes
that no creature beyond the human
has ever known
still, the questions that haunt:
am i better?
how can i be better?
can i be better?
how can i see life fully as a gift
and not a maze—how can i see myself as
trying instead of failing?
i ask the sun this
i ask the birds
i ask the clouds in the sky
and i ask myself—
how can i be worth living
in a world
of beauty?
About the Creator
angela hepworth
Hello! I’m Angela and I enjoy writing fiction, poetry, reviews, and more. I delve into the dark, the sad, the silly, the sexy, and the stupid. Come check me out!
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Comments (10)
Beautiful, and resonant.
This is one of your most beautiful. I love it.
So so so love this! 🩷 and it hit so hard in the relates - both those feeling of self-hate, and the feelings of guilt and selfishness for thinking that in this world with so much, where I should not complain really ... Amazingly beautiful and stunningly crafted work Angela! 🩷 - If you ever doubt it, your beauty shines through this poem and all your writing, and this amazing canvas that is our world, would be all the duller without you in it! 🩷🩷🩷
Oh wow, that was so impactful and beautifully written. Loved it!
Your life is worth living because you are beauty. 💙 A universe experiencing itself in a little world.
This was stunning. I truly hope this isn't something you're feeling.... You are totally worth living. Your writing is truly phenomenal.
I almost hated to like this. I think we've all been here at least once. It's already been said, but the beauty of this contradicts its message. A wonderful piece, Angela!
Any mind that can conjure this poem is clearly more than worthy of life!
Beautifully written.
GOODNESS that hit home. Oh just so well penned, Angela. Spilling my thoughts on the page for me. A really great piece :)