Homemakers' Ball

Outdated and overpriced

Everything about this intermediate is outdated yet overpriced.

Should’ve been honest

Could never tell the truth about something that was going to expose you

So that you can gaslight me.

The only one in the room that willingly goes to therapy

that we both need.

Where am I going from here?

Are you coming with me, I truly don’t know

But I pretend I’m not thinking about any of that.

It's the easiest way.

I don’t know what it means to be the coolest person in the room

Cause all my friends have always been more awesome than me, so I’m sorry that I do not know how to connect with you when you are the newfound Queen to your fanbase.

You meet me and there’s so many things wrong

Cause there’s some sort of intimidation that I do not see.

And now I have to answer to you, to them, to these versions that make no sense to me when I didn’t ask this world, and more specifically you for a goddamn thing.

Crying and telling my truth has never worked my way.

I get told that I’m everything but

that I’m trying to get out of some emotional rut

that I’m the scum of the Earth

Who say?

What say?

Bring it back to times to what.

I often wonder what would happen if I wasn’t here.

I say that and it makes people feel nothing.

Cause we’re in a world where its cool to feel absolutely nothing.

Reach out to build this spot.

Brick by brick that I cannot afford.

I want to go back home cause I don’t think I can build one here.

I just try to make space for myself

Keep myself happy when y’all are telling me to kill myself anyway.

What does it mean when someone says that you should just kill yourself anyway…..