hidden lights

Seventeen

And dazzled by the stardust

Ask me who I am I'd tell you that I just

Broke someone's heart or maybe they broke mine but of course I'm always fine

Sixteen years behind me

Don't no one try to be kind to me

The stars themselves look lonely

Twenty two

Don't know if I'd make it there if I tried

Past all the times I kinda died

Still figuring out if the gold's really real if I trust what I feel

A million fragments are the path I chose

And the million colors I wished for all kinda got old

Tell me if the endless pattern ever gets more bearable

Don't see how dreams stick around when the knives of a thousand nights keep scraping them free

Does anyone see me

Thirty nine

I keep getting older

I keep feeling colder

Sparks of red that glinted through my skin simmered and melted away

With the air so frozen so nothing could stay

Wish I knew who I could've been before I walked away from him

And saw all the hidden lights in my path

But as much as they say there's always tomorrow by now I've learnt that there's no turning back.

Eighty five

This money's been my lover for a while now

I'd promise to find truth but truthfully don't know how

Feel the blinking lights that whisper the games over

I'm almost at the end

A shell

Kinda cracked too well

Ninety one

Turned away from the blazing sun

Forgot the middle my past's a riddle

Who I've become

Take the light that never really shone in my eyes

And kill it so I don't really have to die

If I never lived if I never breathed

In a single breath and left

The empty space where my years disappeared

Tucked away with all of the uncried tears

And all of the words I never learnt how to speak

The jewels that lost all their luster to me

Pull the plug before this place burns in smoke

Close my eyes forever

So I never

Have to gaze at all I broke