Forever the suffering, sleep

This was the end

My final thought

My final breath

.

It should never have been like this

But

I was wrong to not expect it

The bed shook and

As I tossed and turned against my own will

I was drowning in a grief I had only known so well

My final thought

I hoped

My final breath

I pleaded to my mind

Save me with my death

.

In this moment I was ready to die

There was nothing more I could do

I wanted this after all

I did this to myself

I had accepted defeat

I had no fight left in me

But

My legs continued to flail and kick

Despite my mind going dark

.

I should have guessed

This was the end

Did I deserve to be here?

Was it my fault after all?

I couldn't get out of this horror no matter what I tried

I had made wrong decision after wrong decision

The cycle went on

And this life

Wouldn't let me be free

.

But you

.

Holding my fragile existence

As you pulled me into an embrace

Had started to stand up

The hairs on my arms

You noticed

"You're cold"

I could only strain a smile when I looked at you

Your eyes were different

Like nothing I had yet known

You were different

But

I didn't deserve this

Where did you come from?

You appeared out of nowhere

Right when I needed saving

But

You were still just a distant memory,

If I knew you had come to tell me that

Things would get easier

But

You were just a dream

I guess

You were never here after all

.

The bed shook as I tossed and turned against my own will

I took my final breath and

This was the end