Flying in silence

At the age of 16 years old I left the nest

I was very young

The first child the oldest

Physical and mental abuse captured me

No not by my family

My child father

My child never left the nest as he was protected

By who?

My mother

Only person I trusted

She never stopped loosing sight of me

As I would fly silently

She felt my inner spirit crumbling

Her instincts were extremely sharp

Eventually she became nocturnal

Worried about me left her sleepless

Crying and praying every waken moment

My young child crying for me

WHERE'S MOMMY?

I WANT MOMMY!!!!

Escaping reality

Being raped repeatedly

We only have eight fingers and two thumbs

So I cannot tell you how many times

Parasites clanged

As they sucked me dry

I was tired throughout the daytime

So I would sleep and sleep

Until the moon arises

Feeling hopeless I turned to drugs

To numb my pain

I was spotted very quickly due to my elaborate colorful personality

Eventually the parasites multiplied

As they considered me prey

Taking it personally that things did not work out between me and my child father

I envisioned having a family since the age of 12 years old

A husband by my side

Living in a beautiful home

Raising our young children together

Instead I wondered off looking for something.....

LOVE

Inviting the wrong men into my life

Loosing faith

Day by Day

Flying looking for the prey that took advantage of me

SEEKING REVENGE

I realized the only one who really needed me was my child

Returning to the nest as the parasites started to disappear slowly

I became a nurture again as it became natural

Definitely not easy

Facing challenges and obstacles

Making up for lost time

Repairing my self from the inside out

The happiness in my child face was the best feeling I could ever imagine

As the electricity flowed through my entire body

A New Beginning

Mommy is back!!!

7 years sober now

I WAS SET FREE

Leaving it to God to choose who is destined for me

Yes this is my true story

My name is Josmary Denise Aponte