Entrust

This past two years were difficult for everyone

The corona has impacted many people of all walks of life

I can tell you how it affected me and my two children

Loosing my job, my vehicle and honestly my sense of hope

Taking care of my grandfather my abuelito who has Alzheimer was no walk in the park

Although his memory fades day by day

Opening the door

No hesitation

Allowing me and my children to stay at his home

Seeing for myself the years of destruction

Moldy food in the cabinets and fridge

Shower curtain extremely dirty from all the grime that piled up

Sleeping on his bed that he had for years

Harder than laying on a floor with rocks beneath it

Waking up the next morning that day

Strength came over me

Cleaning and Cleaning

Without eating

Throwing out about 20 bags of trash of clutter

I cried

As the tears poured down my face

More than the waterfall in Niagara Falls

So consumed with working that I did not pay attention to what was going on in his life

Abuelito I apologize

Burnt pots

Symbolizing him trying to cook but forgetting

Although my stay was temporary

I did everything I could possibly do

Cooking breakfast, lunch, and dinner for him

Brought me back to memories of being a kid

As he took care of me and my sister as my mom was mentally ill

Always making sure our bellies were full

That we showered

As he turned on the water for us so we wont get burnt

Providing us with wisdom

Taking us in his Plymouth Voyager to any place we needed to go

He took on the role

Being more than a grandfather

I consider him my FATHER

Keeping us away from boys that he knew had bad motives

Teaching me and my younger sister right from wrong

Learning about God

As he bought me and my sister a gold necklaces with a cross

It hurts me

One day it will get to the point that he wont remember me

Sobbing as I am writing

Remaining as strong as I could

Knowing that all he ever wants is the best for me and my sister

I do get scared for the day that I receive that phone call

Promising my grandmother that passed away when I was three to please take care of her family

Moral of the story he is my step-grandfather

My biological grandfather could careless about our whereabouts

Not leaving our side since 1993

Taking care of my uncle and mom when they were little

There was no obligation he could of left

Instead he stayed

My Abuelito is my HERO

Always cherishing him in my heart

Without him who knows what we would of become

I love you Abuelito

From every ounce that surrounds my my spirit

Only person who never abdomen me

No judgement

Just unconditional love