Drowned in the Ocean

The ship set sail

I was in the middle of the ocean

It had been calm in the beginning

For now we were floating

High flying, not afraid of dying

I tied a chain to my ankle

I walked around and rambled

Careful to think, excited to be thoughtless

"Caught in the moments" what they call it

I thought of you, thought of me

Then I caught the urge of the sea

Tingling in love, furious with curiosity

To see if I could push you anymore

I thought you would come....

To my rescue like my prince

But you were fed up and I was caught up

So I jumped off the edge

You didn't hear me

You didn't come to me

You let me submerge...

As I felt the cool water's touch, I was happy

For once I had been able to hope

To hope you were worrying, running, on your way

But with hope there comes demur

I knew you weren't coming

Then it hit me...

Death, of course

No sorrow or shame, just death

It came so fast, I didn't know

Death felt good even when I was doubting you

As I was watching myself sink into the deep corners of the sea

I realized I died without a thought in my mind but of you

When I was suffocating to death, I was hoping for your lips

When I was cold, I was hoping to feel your arms around me

Then all of a sudden, as I was watching myself fall, I saw you pull me up

I kept rising and rising, saw you holding me

You pulled me in, though you were too late

I saw you

Knew you cared

Knew it was worth it, just to know you were there

Its been years and you still care

You never moved on

I know this because I've been watching you

I didn't go to Heaven, didn't go to Hell

I just floated in the air

You love her too, but at night, its my name you call out

Your happy and I am too

So I've decided my death was the best for us

You experienced more love

I got to watch you grow

So I'll see you when you come to me

And I'll love you then

For now I replay the day

When we set sail, to find a way

To renew our love

Knowing instead I got to know the truth

You loved me too

You were always there

You always cared

Your timing was just a little off