Drizzling Days, Sleepless Nights

Drizzling days, sleepless nights

The blankness of the screen

The emptiness of my mind

I have to keep stopping myself

From slipping into a familiar melancholy

I tell myself that a new life awaits me

But can I ever escape myself?

I don’t think so

I remain confined to my thoughts

I build my reality the way I want

But I can’t even tell what’s real

And what’s not

There’s way too much chaos

There are merging lines

I don’t know whether to listen to others

Or listen to my heart

I don’t know what to believe

And what not to

Should I follow the rules

Or make up my own?

My mother’s smile

My brother’s care

My father’s strength

I look at them

They are my home

And I don’t know whether

To cry or smile

They are all I’ve ever known

Most of my memories

Take me back to them

I wish my childhood weren’t a blur

I wish I remembered more details

My short hair and my striped red tee

My dad’s holding me

We don’t know what the future holds

We don’t know how our lives will unfold

I am frowning

And he is smiling.

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