dirtylove,

I fear,

I’ve only known dirty love romantically

conditional, experimental, dangerous and unsure

Attempts to invalidate the environment festering at the entry way door

distracted

fleeting

cold

wrong place, right time, again

Fears

Tears

Years

Recourse unattainable

communication undisputedly smeared

how to care for me in question

My purest intentions would have been reflection, mirrored.

I’ve only been dirty love romantically

Insecure

Short tempered

Wayward to a fault

Tangled in what I thought I meant to you

And it will kill me, in truth.

Letting go has made it disgustingly clear

I loved you more than me quite thoroughly

And I am unfortunately the living proof.