Detonate

Don't take there

Where the memories are so bare

Please don't take me there

Where I'm scared

Where there's so much despair

There's nothing I can do

It's brewing

This confusion

Is fueling

Something in me is erupting

I am waiting

My brain is breaking

Soon

My heart will detonate

My body will shake

Due to these thoughts

Shooting electricity through me

Flashing things to haunt me

I can't stand this feeling

Like something is squeezing everything

No part of me is free

My brain is itching

My eye lids are stitched open

Filled with so much emotions

I drown in its overflow:

Hello

Voices loud,

Scream like a drill,

Blood isn't distilled,

Lick my skin

You can taste the sin

Bitter just like the skin of an orange,

Happiness foreign,

Tainted since all the mourn has become the norm,

Pain of all sorts overwhelm my core,

Feeling restless I'm senseless so defenceless, so careless, maybe that's why I'm faceless, I cant make sense of this, suicide on my mind, might test it, maybe it'll remind me of what lifes like, look to the sky and wonder does god even mind, I'm fucking trying, no I'm lying, my brain is fried, it has died, I want to go, besides, it's such a dark sight, how long can I put up this fight, scream to starry sky as I burn alive, hoping to kill this blight

Silence

This mind so berating

Time to sedate it

Remove my eyes to end my cries, take my breath to take away my sighs, cut my wrist, break my fist, so I can no longer fight

I can't keep portraying this face of sane

My mind is deranged

Screaming my thoughts down the drain

Take away this pain!

I'll give my life in exchange!

Can't seem to keep a mental frame

My heart is bleeding

My eyes are leaking

Draining everything from me

Soon I'll be empty

This isn't just a feint from me

I'm stuck in the ground

I reach out

I need somebody

It's muddy

But no one is around

In my heart there's a drought

When I'm ready

My last breath will never come out