Destruction

I ruin things

Not by choice

But naturally

It’s all noise.

I self destruct

Not too bad

But it easily ruins

Everyone in my path.

I don’t want to

But I am stuck

In my old ways

It’s really fucked.

I don’t know how to be different

I just want to grow

I don’t want to be like that

I just have to show.

I have an attitude that I hide

I keep it to myself

It’s my burden to keep

I keep it on the shelf.

But I love you

This isn’t easy

I’m really trying

It’s just hard for me.

You deserve the world

And you need to know it

You should get a lot from me

But I’m only giving you a little bit.

I wear my heart on my sleeve

And that’s not really good

But I need to just own it

As I rightfully should.

I hope I don’t ruin this

I don’t want to self destruct

I want to protect you

I think this is too abrupt.

I promise I’ll be better.

I’ll do it for you

I guess it’s also for me

But it’s out of the blue.

It was easy at first

But I’m falling too fast.

I feel really scared

That this might not last.

I feel like I care too much

And that is hard for me to handle

It sounds worse than it is

I don’t really want to ramble.

But I haven’t felt this way

Ever in my life before

I’ve been in love a few times

But this feels like more.

And why does it do that?

It hasn’t been very long

That’s why I’m terrified

To hear the ending of this song.

I don’t want to lose you

I can’t even fathom

You’re just so good to me

There’s so much passion.

But I’m afraid I’ll ruin it

In more ways than one

That I’ll self destruct

And I would lose a ton.

I would never hurt you

But I’m scared you’ll leave

That’s really my biggest fear

And it’s something I don’t want to Grieve.

I need to slow down

Relax and take a breath

Realize that you’re with me

And not worry myself to death.

But I’m going to take a step back

And not because of you

I need to protect myself

With everything I have to do.

I need help

And it’s too much to ask

So I’ll keep to myself

It’s an easier task.

And I’ll think smart

About my words and actions

I really love you

There’s so much attraction.

But if I fall too quickly

I’ll ruin everything

I’ll self destruct

And down you’ll Swing.

I need to be careful

I’m getting really scared

I feel really self conscious

It’s way too much to bear.

I don’t know what to do

I just want to be okay

Have no worries

That will happen someday.