Dependable Luck

I grasp the pendant around my neck

fingers lace around it with intentional care

the stone,

each ridge unique,

one of craftmanship, of careful design

a small diamond glints in the sunlight

While I'm captivated by its physical allure

It is more than its design

Each time the necklace fastens around my neck

I feel a spark of energy

It pulsates and glows from the pendant

transforming into luck

One glimpse of luck

A shiny coin found

A missing sock recovered

An offer accepted

It all happened because of the pendant

I wear the pendant everywhere

fearing the consequences if I don't

My personality changes each time the clasp fastens

Unsure, unknowing

now powerful and confident

I wear the pendant everyday as it becomes a part of me

a beautiful obsession

I graze my fingers over it for comfort and reassurance

a reminder of the good luck that awaits me

One day my fingers graze

not a lucky pendant

but the anxiety inducing feeling of a bare neck

I feel the back of my neck, my fears suspected

reality sets in,

pendant nowhere to be found, my dependable luck gone

Among frantic searches I fear how my day will go

No pendant worn around my neck

pulsating and glowing, transforming into luck

will bad luck be my familiarity now?

An unsuccessful search, I reluctantly forget

the day goes on and I know, so must I

And then in the midst of a depressing ordinary day,

I find a dollar bill

lying on the pavement

somehow missed by others

I pick it up and reach to touch my pendant

The misfortune of it lost momentarily forgotten

I touch my bare neck met with a split second of surprise

No pendant, no luck,

And yet

A dollar bill found in the most unexpected of times

I feel my bare neck repeatedly, realization setting in

Was it really the pendant? The luck all along?