Dapper Young Someone

All of this time I thought I wasn't meant to find someone just for me.

But then came you, coming into my life like a breath of fresh air.

You came like a wonderful dream,

after feelings of being stuck in a nightmare.

I wasn't expecting you.

Making your current existence in my life more shocking.

Almost immediately you had me wanting to be a better me.

I suddenly cared more about my appearance.

Took more notice in the sound of my voice.

Wanting to be your dapper young... Someone.

That someone who cares so much about the way you feel

that she'd go out of her way, just to make you feel better.

But then I messed up. 

I started to care too much. 

So much that I wanted you to know.

Even after finding out your situation.

Even though I told myself I could wait it out.

Hoping for a miracle.

Hoping... I don't know what I was hoping for.

I guess at some point down the road, hoping for more.

Now, I'm realizing this too is just a dream, slowly turning into a nightmare.

A nightmare where I will not have you in my life on any level.

All because I couldn't keep my mouth shut.

All because I just one day wanted to be, hoped to be, wished to be, your

dapper young... Someone.