CORRUPTION

Hello,

Remember me?

I'm back

To make you remember who you are

Don't you ever forget

Watch your steps

Don't get too ahead

Or you'll face punishment

You're supposed to be dead

Don't have hope

You're supposed to be alone

Don't try to cope

Just let me take ahold

Stop thinking you can take control

I will always have your soul

Every time you think you're overcoming

You will fall back to me

When you face shortcomings

Because without me you are nothing

Without me

You're weak

Without me

Your guard is down

They walk all over you

They use you

You let them manipulate you

Without me

You believe in lies

You believe in fake cries

Without me

You're being eaten alive

Do I need to remind -

Of all the times I protected you

I fought for you

I talked for you

I picked up that knife

I defended your life

I faced every fight

I'm the only spark left in your mind

To keep you alive

While you hid and cried

Desperate to find a sign that things will be alright

Hoping those who hurt you will apologize

Just for you to be left behind

Forgotten about

Trapped in your mind

They never came to check if you were alright

They never cared when you cried

And begged for them to stop

No one was there when you cried for help

No one answered your prayers

No one was there

Except me

I was there to make you strong

Make you face reality before you even understood it

I was there to tell you the truth

That you will always be alone, so you’ll need to learn how to survive on your own

Just whenever you start to believe

I'll speak to you

So they can't deceive

I'll make sure you remember how much love hurt you and everyone around you

I'll protect you

So let's just go back to how things were

Give up

Stop trying to persevere

Because you'll just be back here.

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Every day I battle myself

I act a certain way to not scare those I love away

I fight against a side of me that wants to corrupt my life

I've learned to not explode, to not cry, to be calm and rational, for my mother

For, whenever she can't,

I can be there for her and my brother, and sisters.

I stay strong so I can try to stop her

Or anyone trying to hurt her

I have to be the protector

I have to be the one who understands

I have to be strong and wise for my brother

So he doesn't end up like his father

I have to be loving and caring for my sister

So she doesn't end up with someone like my father

I have to be everything for everyone

And accept no one will be anything for me

That's the reality of my responsibility

Whenever I breakdown

It's frowned upon

I'm abandoned by them

Those are my consequences for whenever I fail them

Every day I regret I wasn't better

I wasn't stronger

I couldn't keep my family together

I wish I could give my life to give them a better one

My biggest fear was those I love experiencing the same pain I did

Facing it all alone

I was taken away before I could save them from that.

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Hello, remember me?