Communication Is A Juggling Act

Everyone’s process is different, they say.

I don’t want this taking any more of my time.

I’m lost standing here, forever stuck in one place,

like - I’m a victim of some random crime.

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What do I do, do you know what to do?

Should I be crying or angry as hell?

Packing up boxes and putting this away,

out of sight - nice and neat on a shelf?

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I want to convince myself - it was only a dream,

some nightmares that are still in my head.

Roll over and get moving - get on with the day,

wake up - and get out of this bed.

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But that’s not reality, none of its true -

I’m here, I’m still standing, motionless, here.

Waiting for the right mindset I need,

that make the next steps I have to take, clear

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I’m shutting down and we’re both feeling stupid,

watching it play out - like some movie scene.

And I know - I just keep pushing away,

any chance you could still come save me.

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So, if you really want to know, how to help me,

I know it’s intimidating. holding your peace.

Don’t try to fix me or make it alright

Just simply show up, and be