Holding on to my father’s words, telling me I’m smart and beautiful, hoping I’ll never lose his voice. Safe.
“The Give” of my mother, the knowing no matter how old we get I’m always her baby girl. Secure.
My nieces’ goofy laugh. My nephew’s silent wave. My sisters’ sarcasm. My brother’s repetition. My friends’ insight. Rest.
Chocolate; decadent, rich, the kiss you in your mouth kind. Cherries, sweet and juicy. Cozy.
Hugs…His hugs; cuddled closely, nestled under, and settled into his arms-home. Selah
Dancing, can’t forget dancing.
The cadence of music between my limbs guiding the flow of emotion that springs from me.
I rest in these things. I am assured, blessed, relieved, and bursting free. Effortlessly wrapped in them and they in me!
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Lydia Nickleberry
I am a lover of discovery and many genres. I am a certified teacher who has stepped away from the classroom to explore a wider range to educate others. I have loved writing since the first grade and my love for it only continues to grow.
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