Big Fat Obsession

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I don't give a fuck

my blood reveals the faults in my stars

or at least in my DNA

my bones are strong, what can I say

my breath often spews forth in the ragged hacking

of an asthmatic cough

my heart, broken many times

beats strong and regular beneath my sagging breasts

in fact, medical people have commented favorably

on my hardy heart

but in the end, nobody sees a goddamn thing about me

except for my belly

which they've deemed too full of jelly

and my ample ass

so every day when I wake up

the first thing I have to do after taking a piss

is tell myself that I deserve to live

and that I don't deserve to be treated like shit

just because I'm fat

and if your thought starts with "well, if you'd just lose weight"

then you can fuck right off

along with everyone else who ever pounded this hate into my head

because I just did that a lot of times

until my body decided

I couldn't do that anymore

diets don't work

and you shouldn't treat people like trash

even if you don't think they're pretty

~cie~