Beyond Here

As the tree hugs itself, with branches intertwined. It reminds me of how lonely it is to stay inside. Each limb has a purpose to hold on to the other, they all keep the tree grounded. No they dont smother. Each limb hugs another like sister or brother. Looking out my window reminds me of Mother, Earth. She gave birth to creatures and plants, welcomed us on her turf... reminds me of how I used to play with ants. I used to catch fireflies inside jars, but now I know how it feels... to be stuck inside bars.

Window shades horizontal only my eyes can see through them... wondering if the window breaks will that shatter the illusion. Every day I wake up I think about the birds. If I could sing I would sing a thousand words... because I now know.. how the cage bird feels.

I feel like I'm a bird. Butterfly in a cocoon, waiting to grow wings... so I can fly to the moon.

Even on the darkest night, the light always shines. This is proof as I look to the night skies. Everything will be okay. We have to make it through dark nights to get back to the light of day. Here's to a beautiful night in May.

With the world on lock down its nowhere on Earth to go. Maybe I'll try another planet. Call you when I've landed. Nowhere else to go... but inside. So I'll go inside my mind to create a ride. Roller coaster through outerspace it's so exciting. All I do is sleep day in and day out... the black space is so inviting. When I close my eyes, I start to paint with my eyelids. REM sleep... dreams are all I see. Did I forget to mention? I have Narcolepsy with three zzz. Sleep is not the least bit boring to me. While people are snoring in deep sleep, I'm always exploring. My inner world is mezmerizing, exciting as touring. Touring the stars like the moon. Then I'm back awake not really in a chipper mood. I could sleep for days.

Dont know how long we must stay inside. It may be two months or it may be five. I wonder how it feels to be stuck inside with children crying. Mothers get no breaks now and the teachers admire them. Mothers admire teachers, they inspire them. Maybe some will home school their kids. It depends on when the virus ends. Feel like this is never ending and I worry for the world. But there's only so much I can do I was just a little girl.

The world is big. Much bigger than a little girl. Being stuck inside brings everyone closer in the world. All the boys and girls. Feels like a small world... video calls let people keep in touch with another. From far away places we see can see each other. Faces on digital screens. It's possible to be two places at one time... here and in your living room... looking through your TV screen. I see your face you see mine. This is how we must greet. When the world opens back up can't wait to see your teeth. Up close and personal. Don't take hugs for granted. If hugs could heal the world I'd hug everyone on the planet.

While people are out of work. Nature is free, well everything besides the beach. We can look up at the sun.. and pretend like it's in reach. If only for a moment... then we can stare at the bees. Hope to stay away from hornets, worse than killer bees. Hope everyone stays safe.. as safe as they can be. We have to go out to get food to eat. Then back home for a few more days then repeat. Groceries always run out as long as someone's eating. Try to stay strong very strong to defeat it. Then maybe we can go back outside to beaches.

For now... I'll imagine sand in my living room, tan carpet the same color as sand dunes.

Can't wait to build a sand castle... to see what my hands can do.