Balancing

In a whirlwind of turmoil

I forgot my purpose

I was blinded by sacrifice

dripping down my sleeves

I loved in an evil way

Please, look at me

I gave to get

I preyed and sweat

I wanted more, never satisfied

until I surrendered

Not at your feet

but at my own

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I abandoned myself

To follow you home

Our homes are not the same

Mine does not smell of rot

Mine doesn't forget my name

I lived in your dirty darkness

Forsaking my own being

I allowed you to eat me up

and steal all my dreams

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Now I sit on mossy rocks

in peaceful bliss alone

Learning who I am meant to be

and dreaming my own life in me

Out of numbness, I crawled

Searching for the best of me

I cannot lie about it all

I am the one, who did all this, to me

Taking responsibility

Letting go of expectations

Releasing, floating, frolicking

Happy, to be free

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I let go of the darkness

not fully

To let the light in to balance

Now I know my blackest black

and I'm learning my brightest white

together they are intertwined

like a dove and raven may be

some may say forbidden fruit

but that someone isn't me

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Pattern: 12-9-12-9 ~~ 129 represents new beginnings, leadership, balance and Spiritual completion