Awaken

There was once a love I found that made me think,

There was a love I once found that made the bad into positive analogies,

We came together so fast life couldn't reach me,

Mind clouded by sex, lusting over the looks she carried,

There is not a time, I do not miss it,

Trying to fish out the poison that ended it all,

A constant battle with myself to prove her wrong,

In reality, she could've been the same as me, instead, we refused to cope with the misunderstandings,

Here I am today waiting for an answer,

Hoping that I could try again after the breaking point,

If I could hold you again I would,

Kiss you like I'm holding your last breath in society,

I miss you so much that you were my best memories,

Through all the bad I knew you were the one,

Stubborn by the galaxy, predetermined future by family,

In my head all around me, the friends the peer pressure of failing our love and happiness,

I wish I was who I am now, if I met you today I would have been stronger,

The sex would have been trademarked by our desires,

No one could pull me apart, the idea of marrying you was incredible,

I hurt you so bad, I wanted to end you,

This moment happened when I couldn't see from my own eyes,

I woke up scared and ashamed I frighten you,

We exchanged bad words to each other,

But for you, I could never stop looking,

I want to catch up on the 6 years we have been missing,

I want you any way you come, I would love you again, and this time without the lust,

All I ask is that you write me back, please,

No blocking or disbelief,

Even if friends all we had left,

I would enjoy seeing you smile and paint your nails pink,

your favorite color,

All time show was twilight,

Your first love named something with a D,

I couldn't forget the first time I asked you to be my lady,

I told myself what was I thinking,

Tried to run away purposely hurt you so you could see,

I'm no angel, I was still discovering,

Yes, I am a mom and I would never change it,

All I wanted was the liberal family,

I'm quirky, I do not live my life demands,

So many goals we could have achieved,

I made 50 grand easy, and with all that money I wish I could have returned the favor,

Money doesn't buy love it buys grief,

Everything becomes a fantasy,

I made you cum so many times I wanted a degree,

The point is I miss you and this may be weak, however, I know your motto is to never turn back to the past,

But even just one word like hi would last a lifetime,

I miss you deeply Diamond Louis,

I was hurt, young, stupid, and clouded,

You are probably almost married like I am,

Even then taking a trip with you would help me understand,

If this man I say I love but do feel is fair to him who does everything on his own will,

I wanted to cry the day I scared you,

I wanted to fight you because I notice you stopped caring. please, please give me the chance to see you again,

I was wrong about everything, even the things I denied,

I love you every day because I realized you were the first person I ever loved,

I hate that I lost you so much I even pray to God to let me move on,

But as the days go on you are like my drug of choice, I crave you so much I could never make the woman I'm with take your spot.