Attention (Not Quite Touching)

You met me at a time when things weren't alright

At a time when I wasn't seen

and no one knew me

At a time when I didn't feel loved

I wanted to be seen

but was also scared to be

I was alone.

I've never known why

but you saw me

and noticed me

You gave me the attention I needed

The attention I profoundly craved for

You made me feel loved

You said you cared

So, I let you know me

I let you see more of me

I almost let you see all of me

You were close but not quite there

yet

I wanted to get close to you

I loved getting near you

I loved the touching without quite touching

The way your lips would curve when you tease me

I loved how cool your face and voice would be

when you murmur something sweet into my ear

making heat creep up through my body

and down in-between

You still care

You're still aware

So why do I still feel alone?

I can tell you want to

I can tell you try

But I can tell,

unfortunately,

you don't quite understand me

not fully...