anti-comfort.

I left comfort outside the door

and all I’ve got

there are pains all over my body

I take pleasure in sufferin’

*

from head to toe

head and shoulders above

all the inhabitants of the earth

as I am

*

on the other side of their story

where they cannot imagine

existence of life

there is where I reside

*

they scream with their stentorian voices

crackin’ on the wall

of my bedroom

where I sleep durin’ the day

*

tryin’ to overcome

huge headache and all kinds

of disappointments in other people

and in me

*

when I tried to balance that thin line

between life and death

livin’ and learnin’

livin’ and lettin’ live

*

others never understood

they tried to force their point of view

to the limit

threatenin’ humanity

*

and that's all I have left now

tryin’ to figure it out

things that were never meant to happen

and yet they boggle the mind

*

‘these things are sent to try us’

I keep thinkin’ that

gettin’ over it in my mind

every day I try to put things right

*

but on my own it looks preposterous

dwellin’ on the past

when one side refuses to tell the whole truth

we are dealin’ only with fragments

*

of distorted reality

augmented somehow by this

acts of guessin’ the truth

as if the truth had the power to kill

*

so, every day I embark on an exhaustin’ journey

slottin’ the puzzle of each case

to the predestined place

that the producer of this confusion had in mind

*

in this delicate moment of its creation

and my mere imitation

of this procedure

ruinin’ me and revealin’ things

*

I could never imagine until

someone with their ominous and omnipresent plan

decided to lay their hands

on the comfort of my life

*

dependin’ on my ability to solve

equation appearin’ before my eyes

where, outwardly, there are no clues for doin’ that

in the eyes of the root cause

*

September 2022

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