Another Episode

Hello,

Where'd you go,

It's only been a day,

But I miss you already.

Hello?

Where'd you go,

Why are you ignoring

Why are you leaving me

Why are you abandoning me

Please come back I'm sorry

Please I need you

Help me

Why are you doing this to me

It hurts

I'm sorry

Please just stop hurting me

I can feel your hatred

Even though you're not here

I can see you looking down on me with eyes of disdain

Why do you hate me so much

It's engulfing me

What did I do to you

Stop it

I hate this

I hate you

You bastard

How could you do this to me

Fuck I hate this

Why are you doing this to me

I can't take it anymore.

Filled with so much rage,

But all I can do,

Is cry

Till there's nothing left.

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Hello,

Where'd I go?

I'm not here

Where did I go?

Am I in a dream?

Why am I not a part of the world I see?

Why does my mind feel separated from my body?

Time has stopped

I've become a spectator in my own life.

I can't feel the warmth of others

I'm so cold

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Hello,

It's only been a day,

But I miss you already.

I can't stop picturing you in my mind,

You only exist behind my eyes,

Where I imagine you so dreamlike.

I feel like,

Just your touch,

Would make me right,

But I know,

There's no such cure,

For the blight I hold inside.

I want to reach out,

You're my rain ,

And my soul is in a drought,

When no one's around,

There's nothing to share,

Just left with this empty stare,

That I feel pulling me to the ground.

When I say you hurt me ,

You don't ,

My buried memories do,

That's why I ask

To just

Please

Don't take me back there,

And leave me alone with them.

I wonder how much forgiveness you have left for me,

I know someday I may use the last bit of it

But I hope before then, I can control this sickness.