Alone Again, How Ironic

Alone I am once again

Terrible friend I have become

Lovers but once dead of night

Never again can not take back

Time and again I am alone

My own doing usually is

Have I learned from all this

Know I must or alone I'll be

Your parting comment still rings deep

Haunting me in sleepless night

Know it is truth you do speak

Hurts me more than yells and screams

Parting words I wish I had

Tell you my fault it was not

Tell you how it was yours

Strung me along like a fool

Maybe remind you of the time

When that trust first was broken

Remember then I'm sure you do

You yelled at me for helping you

Break apart we started then

Far more distant we became

Six months later it was over

Never again will we speak

Alone you said I would be

My own fault you said it was

Terrible friend I have become

Lovers but once never again

So what have I learned from all this

Can not change the past I know

Try and fix this several times

Never enough it was to late

Was it worth it after all

Knowing you all this time

My innocence with you I lost

Enjoyed it then and now regret

I did not lie to you when

Told you I was falling for you

Maybe that was what did it

Ended it for both of us

Always seemed to hit a wall

Come this closer but no closer

Emotions never given back

Always led to one conclusion

Fake emotions they must have been

Products of that lonely night

Constant reminder of my sins

Committed just to forget

Love you I could never do

Let me love you you did not

Refused to love me from day one

Friends with benefits instead we seemed

Wish those nights had not happened

Wish I had not taken that call

Wish we had crossed that line

Maybe then you'd still be here

Alone forever you said I'd be

My own fault you said it'd be

The truth I know is what you speak

Never a riddle comes from you

Do I care if I'm alone

Don't really know if I do

Seems to change day to day

With the setting of the sun

Loved by someone I so guess

Want to feel once again

Thought that maybe you were her

Seems I was wrong once again

So here I am once again

Alone but for pen and paper

How ironic I find that

Full circle now have I come

Forget you I know I must do

Make it easy I know you will

You say I ignored you all this time

When in truth you were ignoring me