Adynaton

The hyperbole of your bootstrap

Sends me to therapy

Like a good little soldier.

Each morning it clears the child-proof cap and

Shakes two pills into my hand;

One cream, one pink.

It says "Look people

In the eyes."

"Smile every time you speak."

It makes my facial muscles weak

From effort.

Greeting a stranger,

Gritting my teeth,

Getting my point across.

I am sweet

Like a good little girl.

I used to drink

The dissonance to sleep.

A cocktail of tequila chasing Xanax

And Vicodin,

Made waking and dreaming indistinguishable.

My head pounds

But now

I take some CBD,

And drink a glass of water,

Like a good little human.

I'll play your game until the day

I don't.