Act I, Scene IV

living life this way frightens me dearly –

knowing that at any time

I have the sole power to end my life’s play

all on my own.

looking at everything I’ve done,

feeling the weight of it all –

I want to be born again

and simply start this first act over.

performing for the past twenty-four years

out of fear and mere debauchery,

I’m not sure who this is standing center stage,

speaking such a sad and sorrowful soliloquy.

I admire all of you who are at peace –

as I myself have felt that serene feeling too,

when I was a child, sheltered from the realities,

before my first act went dark.

I commend the lucky ones –

those of you who have never once wished

to end the scene before your next act,

bravo, and I sincerely wish you a grand encore.

but my lights are dimming now,

I hope the spotlight shines bright for you,

forever.