A Short but Reflected View of Inner Feelings

I stare at my reflection for the first time today

A viewing of desolation and these dreams in disarray

Throughout a years’ long struggle, that has seen me lost and muddled

I stand alone with just some hope, that I’ll find a way

Inside my head there sings a song about giving up

My inner hope remains the only thing, my only chaliced cup

Time has formed so many cracks, the lyrics to this putrid track

I stand alone with just some hope, that it won’t corrupt

There have been so many moments of unmitigated joy

Proud I stand and tearful, as a child with a new toy

Optimism surges like torrent, yet turns to the abhorrent

I stand alone with just some hope, subject to this evil ploy

Screaming at the rest of them is the easiest thing to do

My bitter mind is testament to what I have been through

Foul feelings are the very worst, a play on words for all the cursed

I stand alone with just some hope, hope that I’ll improve

This was never supposed to be an easy thing to write

Yet I found it very simple, and sometimes quite contrite

I’d love to live my life again, yet minus all of the hate and pain

I stand alone with just some hope, that I can be alright

Focused hard upon the glass that reflects my sullen image

My vicious thoughts and feelings laid bare, hope for a thief to pillage

I’m not quite sure what I am expecting to happen here

Will the madness ever clear and will those around me listen for once

I hope that they can find a way rather than continue to punch

The mirror reflects me perfectly, to live and breathe in fear

I’m hoping that one day I’ll view the mirror from inside

The images that it would portray give me a sense of hope and pride

Learn to look out, not in will give the feel of a cloudless sky

Reading through this piece of work and everything I wrote

I suppose that some who read this would be reading a suicide note

Be rest assured that is not the case, you own mirror tells you why.

Dedicated to everyone who thinks and behaves outside of the considered 'norms' and are berated for doing so.

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