3am thoughts

dark thoughts rolling through my head

I gasp for air

Feeling so much at once

I might break

But if I fall who catches me

Alone is how I’ve always felt

Left with my own dark voice speaking in my head

Fighting everyday for a break through

Is how I live

Living with nothing to proof because I am my own walking testimony

Look into my eyes and you too will see the pain

That joy that once lit my eyes

The eyes that defined happiness

Is all gone

Trying to find that feeling again

Step out to a scenery but everything just seems so dull

I then think to myself

It all makes sense

I’ll shed blood

I’ll shed a million tears

To have that feeling back

We live in a world of money

They say money doesn’t buy happiness I’m hoping it will

Protecting my heart

Distractions will only fumble your bag

Pure heart pure heart pure heart

Trying to keep my pure heart

In a world full of hatred

Over the years I wonder how it could be that my heart remained in the right place

When will I be happy

Hurt a lot of people I’ll never say

Pure heart pure heart pure heart

I said to myself over and over again

My family comes before anything

Did things I shall never speak on

I didn’t mean no harm

The reaper is catching up

But if my soul being taken from me is my karma, shall it be

But that’s a battle I won’t give up on easy

So little time and so much to do

I promised to mine that we are going to be good